first timer

2005-05-14T01:42:39+02:00

my first blog entry..how profound. i'm actually seriously doubting that ne1 will read this so wot the hell.
it is something under a week till my mucho anticipated 16th and i'm hardly wetting myself with excitment. 16 sounds so bloody old its scary, on top of that i havent done a 10th of the stuff i'd expected i would hav at this age.
seen as nobdody i know will ever (i hope) read this might as well get a few things off my chest...
1. i hate diaries because when i read back on wot i've written i want to screw it up it makes me cringe sooo much
2. i secretly like avril lavignes music (i really am sharing here!)i also regularly listen 2 my dads pretender cd
3. i lie 2 my parents everyday..wot they dont know cant hurt them. like the fact that i drink litres of wine every weekend..they still think 3 glasses will get me completley plastered
4. i still hav a little thing for larry*(very nice but very slutty guy i know) even tho i ourtight deny it 2 everybody wich just makes me hate him even more.
5. i havent ever had a 'real' relationship and i dont think i will for a long time. if ne1 tries to get close 2 me or tell me they like me i do one of two things..either tell them they do not like me and to stop being silly...or i milk it 4 wat its worth (a nice little confidence boost) then tell them ' i like u as a mate but nothing more'
6. i am fakely modest at every oppurtunity
7. things hav been weird ever since i got it on (1 very drunk nyt) with one of my best female frends (still not 100% sure this happened as neither of us has mentioned it)over these last few weeks she has been a complete cow 2 me..also becos she sees me as a copetition in every area of her life..frends, boys, skool. its a competition that she puts a lot more effort in2 than me, she kisses so much ass it aint funny
8. i hate this small town i have moved to. i miss the culture, shops and the racial diversity of my home counry and city
9. i am getting a tattoo as soon as i can (another thing i dont intend on telling my parents)

mmm tht does feel better i can see why these things are so popular..slightly worried about pervets reading this but oh well i'll prolly start writing a real diary next time but until then au revoir xxx

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